My mind is too exhausted. So is this fragile heart of mine. And the battle between them is ruining my soul. Haha I’m losing my mind tonight. Tonight isn’t a good night for me. I Kinda have the urge to leave this town for awhile and go away to repair the broken parts in me. Where’s God?
I don’t know. I just tend to hate myself sometimes. For not being good enough to people around me. I must’ve been sucha letdown. Because I know I’m nothing but a piece of useless trash that nobody would fight for. I’m a worthless prick, a loser, a lousy friend, a failure lover. I’m never good enough for anybody and I guess its part of my life. I’m sorry if I ever let you down. I do love you guys. Truly. But sometimes it just get clouded up by many things and I just couldn’t show it. Sorry.
Why do we all take life so seriously when at the end of the day, it doesn’t make us happy? We all work hard for what we want and waste our lives away, and at the end of this whole thing, it just doesn’t make us happy. Even if it does, let’s say money or fame, how long can the happiness last? The only true happiness we can achieve is within ourselves and not through external materialistic objects. I’ve been tyn’na practice positivity lately because I wanna be happy. And like my best friend always tell me, it’s all in the mind :)
Thank you guys for accepting me for who I am, my good and my bad. Thank you guys for letting me be myself in the most comfortable way. Thank you guys for always being there for me. Thank you guys for taking care of me often. Thank you guys for making me a happier girl than I was before I met all of you. And thank you guys for being so fucking awesome.